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ATHF Dr Weird

I Am Makes This Brain

I... am... tired. Wow, so very tired. I am happy, but also tired. I am getting some POWER OUT time. This makes me happy. I think the tired this week has been messing with my brain.

My computer is still inaccessible to me remotely. Wow really? Yes I know this. It is cold out. Somewhere in Iowa, someone may be getting snow. April showers brings May snow.

This morning at the bar, before going home, "Make My Baby" extraordinaire had yet another woman talking to him about giving her babies. Of course, she was all over about 3 other guys before making it out the door. Hmm, and people say I am a male prostitute. At least I keep my whoring down to no more than one per session. Hahaha!! "Whoring" is a word!

My phone is still a piece of crap. My car passenger front tire has a leak or something as I will end up to about 15 PSI within a week if I do not fill it up. My house is utterly trashed. It is udder-ly trashed also. I like this Net Radio station. /yawn I have gas. Alex could use a bath. I just scratched my ear. I have inner wax build up that requires fixing. My body is falling apart. I love Floyd.
Alex

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So, great to see God keeping Iowa folk on our toes with this weather. Also nice that it is weeding out the idiots. I mean... snow, do you speak it? Yes I have all wheel drive. However my last few cars had crap wheel drive and I still did rather well.

It is also to see me being able to make a mobile post on this absolute piece of phone. Damn how I hate technology.

I am looking forward to my burger. There are quite a few people here, even thoughthe ross appear to be... holy SHIT this burger and fries look wonderful! Food time :D
overy

Multitasking Toilet

So that human part of me is in some "alone" state. I realize this in my desire to not go out and drink a lot more, but to interact with humans. Most people would say, "well wanting to interact with other humans is normal." From the basis of how humans are programmed I would agree with that thought. However, for the longest time, being an "only child with siblings", I really had no problems being isolated from the rest of the world.

I am unable to pinpoint when this started. Welcome one of a variety of reasons I want to get back into writing. The more I throw thought onto the cloth, whether coherent or not, the better apt I am at having a cohesive understanding of my mentality and when things start to go astray, or as dITZ would "mis-see" ashtray, hEhEhE!! Hmm I lost my train of thought. Maybe it's the gas.

When you get any sort of dependency on another human(s), you end up with more disappointment in your life. I believe this is the logic that I pounded hard core into my brain back in the day when being solitary was a benefit. I went to Zimm's, and only one of my regular bartenders was there. Once again, Eddie was MIA. I decided I was not going to "compete" for attention with all the other humans there with only one bartender. So I decided to go to Mickey Finn's despite recovering from a cold that makes singing a possible nightmare for throats. I got there, and I was missed. It was by only two or three people, however it was that good feeling. I even had a stranger encounter. The fact she later invited a guy to the bathroom and they were in there for a while certainly made her stranger. I was really happy that I got to close the show but of course I was a bit toasted by then and while I think little to no one was paying attention, I actually do not mind that as getting the crowd's attention these days is near difficult, or something. I really dug in and just gave it my Floydian best and it was great to me. At least, I think it was great, haha.

Well the problem with this alone business is it centers around life by proxy. By that, I mean, just being around another human still really does little for me. Even being around family and the like is not going to necessarily do much. I can be in a party of "friends" on FFXI, and I am good to go and in a great mood. I can be in an EXP party and not really feel the affects of being non-alone, even though I am still in a party, and gaining experience. After the bar, I decided to leave Stingray a message. It reminded me of the old days of talking to him for about eight hours straight. This was daily, and many times, included mass amounts of me commenting about his mother, singing, or making the usual inappropriate remark about life. Being in a more toasted market, this of course enhanced these feelings. Man I rocked the keyboard when I got home. It was nice to have no one around at home when I got there. How odd is that? I was not alone with my keyboard. It is that or I was just that not with it by then, hEhEhE!! I was in an extremely musically moved mood. I am processing that there is more to this than what was on the surface. I think this is going to cover another topic that has been rattling in my noggin for a while; music.
MW

Darth Mud

So, I am having a really good day. I think the worst of my illness is behind me, I got Woodworking to level 6, and it has just been an overall great day :) Whatever strange funk I was having appears to be gone, or at least it has dissipated enough that it is no longer a threat to me.

Thus I am looking forward to going out tonight. I am hoping to see Eddie as I have not seen him in a little while now, and I enjoy his company. No, not in that way. My word it has been some time since I have done anything remotely close to that, hahaha! Dear word I think now is a good sign off time...