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Dirty Nablu

Yay! Another post that auto saved from Monday night that almost makes no sense to post now since the weekend is half gone over. Oh well, for your viewing pleasures...

So my weekend was good. I had Jarin for an extra day, however I think I sabotaged that by laying the law down, something I play on doing more and more with him. He was a bit more moody for most of the weekend. As I had setup entrapment for him (asking him if he was good or not for others when I knew the answer), he lied to me, as I figured he might, so it was no games, and since he was tired, it turned into a lack of letting him do many things the next day also. I realize some people do not condone this sort of behavior, however, it is a large aspect of who I am and I do it with more than my kid. I will do it to anyone. The reason I do it to others is different than with Jarin.

With Jarin, I ask questions I know answers to because I realize he is going to attempt to “sneak attack” himself out of situations he gets into. I am attempting to teach him responsibility for his actions. This goes with honesty as well. I even explained to him that he was already “disciplined” and was not going to get into trouble for answering me honestly. I feel pressing him for honesty has at least worked out, as there are times he has given me honest answers to questions that I was not even entrapping him with. He would simply tell me something he did wrong. It brings me hope that he may grow up with a better sense of honesty than even myself. After all, it took me 13 years before the concept even came around to me, where I lied to my father about something, he knew it, and had a chat about honesty with me. Now some might think that he “forgets” things, however, he has shown me that if he is forgetting something he is selecting to do that. Confronting him a few times, I have seen a “I do not remember” or “nothing happened” convert into a “I did this, and this and this” or what have you. As noted, the kid is certainly smart for his age.

As for other humans, well, I have a trust issue. All I have to do is see someone lie to someone else and my trust in them goes down. It boils into the “if you can lie to one person about one thing then you can lie about anything to anyone.” This later gets filtered out by things such as people being honest to me about something that they otherwise may seem to not want to be honest about, or, by the fact I ask them a question I know the answer to, and get the answer I already knew. Testing people’s honesty is considered… low, by many. I am at a stage in my life where if I had done a better job of checking up on people’s honesty, my life would not be as difficult as it is, and I also would not get so anxious wondering, “Does so-and-so really mean that?” “Am I going to get screwed trusting this person with this information/money/emotion?” If I was not so hard up with honesty as I am, it would not be such an issue possibly. However, I am, and I cringe still when people say just the smallest lies to other people. There are times where I truly just wish I did not give one pipe tail about honesty. However, somewhere down the road of life, I programmed it so well into my working essence that I do not seem to be able to un-program it. I get asked questions I would rather not, and give the answers I know are going to do nothing but cause trouble.

Speaking of Jarin, I had a nice chat with my beautiful and sexy girlfriend about Jarin, and the handling of him. I know it is a difficult concept for some people, for it certainly has been for me. Knowing how to take care of another person’s child is certainly no easy task for anyone. In fact, I remember the first time I saw someone other than parents deal with a rowdy Jarin. It was dITZ. She up and laid down the law with him, and I remember at first thought not being sure just how much I liked someone telling my child what to do like that. Then I realized how absolutely awesome it was. As my ability to remember back that far is limited, I know the situations dealt something on the lines of Jarin wanting to do something, and she would say no, firmly. Then he would start to act up, and she would not put up with it. That is the basic foundation of discipline. Child wants to do something, you say no, child acts up, you put your foot down. Some parents do this improperly, by doing discipline with frustration, meaning, they are not laying down the law, they are simply frustrated and take it out on the child. Of course, I already talked about that… when… ever… I did, I cannot remember when I talked about that. Nina is afraid of disciplining Jarin. That makes sense. I had to explain if she does not when dad is not around, that he is just going to use his smarts to totally walk all over her. If there is one thing I have seen in my child, is that he will absolutely, and positively, push his limits to everyone who “watches” him to see what he can get away with. The more he can push, the more he will keep pushing. Also, as would be expected with anyone, if someone gives him an idle threat and does not follow through, he takes that as something he can do in the future. You can *say* that you are going tell daddy about his actions, however if daddy never hears about it and does not address it, then score one point for "Dexter boy genius". Even with my talk with her about handling Jarin, I realized that I really have to step up my game more. I have found a few times where I "threaten" something, and end up not following through.

My weekend was otherwise well. I had a minor spat with Nina over a subject that really is touchy with me. Of course, the reverse is so with her. It dealt with the men of the world cheating on women. That is another story topic for another entry. Well, the topic, not the incident. The incident actually shows just how well we are together. In fact when she mentioned something about our compatibility or something like that, I stated noted that I personally knew of only one couple that was more... not compatible, geese that is totally not the word I was looking for. Um... it is the word that deals with the ability of two people to cohabitate together in an intimate relationship without fighting or arguing. That's the word. Candie and her man-meat is the only couple I know that tops the ability between Nina and myself. Of course, in terms of my own personal relationships, I cannot think of any serious relationship I have had with someone where the "that's the word" is more so than with Nina. I really do have a keeper :) Oh yeah, that reminds me... oh... wait, that's right, my mom reads this, she does not want to read about that. Hi mom!

I ended up taking Jarin back a little sooner than usual. I had a semi busy Sunday to otherwise deal with for the day. Him eating a small bowl of pasta for about an hour did not help. I pulled out the discipline. I sent him up to the guestroom to timeout for a few since he wanted to just drag it out. After dropping him, I worked really hard to get some gaming done with Stingray. Yay! I was on time and everything! Pro Wrestling and Contra on NES, talk about some good memories. I hope the memory in how we played NES games stays in my head also. NesTen, I believe, and make sure the P2P is no running on the other computer, and one can be good to go.

Past Dew

I actually posted most of this (minus last part of sentance) on Friday. Oops...

So my kid is smart, super smart. Not only was he the only one out of 40 kids to get 100% on big and small letters and numbers, but he manipulates and twists the world around him to get what he wants. Well, at least when dad is not around. That crap rarely flies with me.

Actually, I am happy to hear that my hard work is paying off. I know I am not the only one who has put forth a lot of effort towards my child. I can only account for my actions and what I do, specifically now that he lives a second life away from me. Of course, I really go as far back as before he was even born. I know they say that talking and playing music for your unborn helps improve, and while usually one would note “who is they?”, I cannot help but think that helped out greatly. Also, there are many dads who are known to not be all that active in their young child’s life, especially when it deals with two people who are not really together. It brings me a sense of pride and purpose of existence to know I was not one of those people. I could have opted out of the whole process. I choose not to. I imagine if I really had to thank anyone, it would be my mother. I do not think I would have the views and thoughts that I do in life if it was not for her. My dad, he is a special case. He loves me, he is great, however, I think the wanting kids and emotional side come from her. I feel my father gave me logic. Logical father and emotional mother equals... um... me.

I wonder if I told a customer that they sounded very attractive and sexy if that would opt for "ending on positive note" in my OB's? I think it should. Maybe my customer do not want to have a good day. I mean my Social Sim has a bad mood potion, and some people certainly seem to enjoy being in bad moods, so maybe my customers want to have a crappy day. If I tell them to have a good day, I am doing the opposite that my customer wants. BUTT FUDDER!!

So, I got paid today and was looking to kill off some bills. After doing even more millions (two) of transfers of money to here and there, it turned out I was about $10 short of paying off my Discover Card right now. I had to laugh. I have been stressing a bit with finances due to, oh, that $620.54 floating in space that would have taken CARE of this problem, just to be short $10... that I have, and belongs to me... I just cannot touch it for about 55 days or so since it will mean cancelling a check that I will end up getting a $25 charge for, despite the fact that NationCrap changed their address, and ING sent it to the wrong place. I could have paid that card, and I could have paid another, and would have had only one left that could have been paid during the next check. Now, instead, I am going to end up getting a flipping finance charge. My only possible saving grace would be to mail back the check sent to me to the right address. Ug, all that non-electronic work, I have no clue how I will manage.

So, I was talking a lot about finances at work. At the rate I am going, it is "guessed" that I will get to retire with $123k a year if I go at 65. I think 65 is the retirement year. I honestly do not want to go that late. My word that is forever from now. I want to enjoy the ending part of my life. So that goal is totally out of reach. I am glad that I am vested in my ESPP. Getting common stock at a 25% discount is a lot better when your stock is higher as it is now, if it ends up going up. Enough about money, let's talk about technology.

Dear word... Picard keeps talking about wanting to update. For once in my life, I was proactive and I did some research on-line about the update. It appears they want to update to Gingerbread. It would also seem while my rooted phone should not be an issue, having removed Verizon bloatware might be. I guess they like to ensure their shitty crappy almost useless software is on as many devices as possible. This means that I am going to have to restock the device if I want to do the update, even though I am not really sure I want to update to begin with. Silly me removed stock programs without backing up. Guess I will finger that out better in the future, eh?