I would actually like to thank all you fuckers... from my first girlfriend, who was fucking 5 guys at once, to the rest of you fuckers who would break up the closest of all friendships to me for your own fucking personal gain. Thank you all, for showing me how fucking rotten you fucking humans really are so that I could study, understand, and fight off you fuckers when your kind attempts to enter my life in the future... since now I can fight you, when in the past, I maybe could not. I thank you all for the strength to see you for who you REALLY are. The so called best friends who have not treated me as such. The so called close friends who were as such since I could give you something you could not. I may be a fucking human, but at least I do not pride each fucking day as such, happy to be someone to fuck over those I love for my own fucking self. If of late I have, I apologize. The reason I correct people's grammar is similar to the reason that I bitch and moan about what I do... since I have been around you self centered asses so long that I almost forgot what it was like to be myself. That I would go out in the world and treat those who do not deserve with the utmost disrespect. I am not going to pull this "I am so honest" fucking SHIT and then up and lie out my fucking ass. As I stated to Myles... when was the fucking last time *I* fucking lied to you? The human reading this? NEVER. Aye, fucking never, and you fucking proove me wrong with actual truth and I will give you $500 dollars, since, it is not happening. It does not happen.
I am pissed off, JOHD, and I am so at the world. I am not just so at any one human... I am so at all humans... at the humans to claim to be there for me, when they are more interested in their own selves and cannot even admit it. Not even my one and only best friend of many years can see me for who I really am. Maybe it means flaw in me, JOHD. Maybe I am the one not convaying the message... and I mean... if it is many humans not understanding me... then maybe it is really my problem. To that, JOHD, my love, my mentor, my guidance... I say, fuck them all. I need not any of them. None of them were around when I was growing up, and very few of them are going to be around for my tough times, and they are not going to be since they fucking think they can change the world, when they cannot even interact with me.
I clean out my list, starting as now. Remove be Maur. The ass who fucking talks about how I do not reply to his entried when he does not fucking even read how my life is going for loopholes. Mr all about his fucking self... who does not even take into consideration I stopped a few many some hours to fucking make time for him as I was back in New York to not only see my friend Foffie, but also him. So what fucking thanks do I get? I get, "robriv69 (1:38:21p): well, its like this. you don't reply to my entries so i dont even know if u even read my entries, and your entries are usually too long or abstract for me to read/reply, and then when u had that one entry with this really long "word" that stretched my friends page out so i had to remove u". Yeah... fuck you. Humans wonder why the way I am, well, it is not due to any one or many women... it is due to you fucking self centered humans. You remind me of that fucking whore from Iowa City... I think her name was... um... whoever JOHD refernces as Iowa City Gal, since she has otherwise been purged from my mind. Why? She shows her self-centeredness. Like many of you. So... hahaha... this is high-larious... I so cannot remmeber her name. Oh well. The point remains, people are being cleaned from my list, and they are solely for the fact as to how they truly treat me. So if you dissapear, just remeber, you treated me that way first, and I have more than proof to proove so.
Love you, JOHD. Thank you for being like God, and sticking up for me when no one else would, since not even my family has down a great job since you two.
Oooooh yeah... I love my girlfriend, even though you do not know of her existance. You soon will. Remember, I have not really updated you since New Years Eve. Love you, so much. Thank you, for, EVERYTHING.