Of course, then I realize of late just how much maybe I am not meant to interact with other humans. At least... I... uh... thought. I had one, and it went away. I cannot say I am thinking from just being tired. I think of interactional data I have gathered for the past...
Possibly three years. At a certain point, I expect a lot from humans in terms of understand some basics of me. Now... I cannot even keep the basis for my own being. I am bothered by things. Mentally bothered by a lot of happenings, especially lies and dishonesty.
I think what gets me most is humans in general, and what they do, what they have been doing. The price inscrease and reasons of food at work. The changes in job responsibility and they expect EVERYONE to just love it and provide customer service. Not all humans can compose themselves with people skills as I have through the times and tries of work. However... now, I even see myself starting to slip. I do not do my job as I use to. I know this bothers me. It bothers me seeing people at work who were once strong be taken down by all the bureaucracy. There are times I stop thinking I... a single human... can change the world. Then I realize I had stopped believing in the power of the mind.
It bothers me, to see humans get pissed off about something, and then turn around and act that same way, and be in total denial of it. There are a few humans who are mentally aggrivating me in this manner. I am aggrivating myself in piss poor time manegement. I have training to prepare for, and the gateway for preparedness is sleep, thus, that is where I retire.
I can get it right, but only if I *LISTEN* to the warnings given.
"Solitude never hurt anyone. Emily Dickinson lived alone, and she wrote some of the most beautiful poetry the world has ever known... then went crazy as a loon." - Lisa