Mar 5th, 2003
|00:54 - Tired Pocket Work|
You know, JOHD, of late I realize how much I do love myself, and think that it is unfortunate others do not love themselves.
Of course, then I realize of late just how much maybe I am not meant to interact with other humans. At least... I... uh... thought. I had one, and it went away. I cannot say I am thinking from just being tired. I think of interactional data I have gathered for the past...
Possibly three years. At a certain point, I expect a lot from humans in terms of understand some basics of me. Now... I cannot even keep the basis for my own being. I am bothered by things. Mentally bothered by a lot of happenings, especially lies and dishonesty.
I think what gets me most is humans in general, and what they do, what they have been doing. The price inscrease and reasons of food at work. The changes in job responsibility and they expect EVERYONE to just love it and provide customer service. Not all humans can compose themselves with people skills as I have through the times and tries of work. However... now, I even see myself starting to slip. I do not do my job as I use to. I know this bothers me. It bothers me seeing people at work who were once strong be taken down by all the bureaucracy. There are times I stop thinking I... a single human... can change the world. Then I realize I had stopped believing in the power of the mind.
It bothers me, to see humans get pissed off about something, and then turn around and act that same way, and be in total denial of it. There are a few humans who are mentally aggrivating me in this manner. I am aggrivating myself in piss poor time manegement. I have training to prepare for, and the gateway for preparedness is sleep, thus, that is where I retire.
I can get it right, but only if I *LISTEN* to the warnings given.
"Solitude never hurt anyone. Emily Dickinson lived alone, and she wrote some of the most beautiful poetry the world has ever known... then went crazy as a loon." - Lisa
Current Mood: weird
I can only comment on one thing in your post. I don't believe people are meant to have one job for too long. They get complancent, they get listless, they lose motivation. I have seen teachers at it for 30 years, doing an amazing job...because they knew better than to stay in one spot. On the other hand, I have seen teachers in one position for only 6 or 7 years, and they are going through the motions.
People crave variety. At home or work, it doesn't matter. Some find it, while others don't even bother to look.
Just my opinion.
Hmm... ah yes, and I do see you point, for I have experienced this with humans I have observed, including myself. At some point, however, I came to being able to do the same thing over and over again, but it depended on what it was I was repeating. Challenges and the like are nice, and at my job, there is always a challenge. If there was no pressure on stats, I could see myself doing the job I do for the rest of my life DESPITE the fact it is not directly related to the computer or psychology field as I had hoped. Of course, I get to "show off" to myself my computer skills every time we do training and I am the one zipping through the screens not being held back by the technology. As for psychology... when you take calls from 14 states... psychology is all around in listening to how customers act in a given situation. Then, there are the other employees who start to lose their mind.
However... it is not directly what I want to do, and the only reason I have issues with my job is because I am told one thing, take care of my customer, and then told another, we want calls under 300 seconds. I am sorry but that is just not possible for *true* customer service. Not in repair... not for any phone company.
I know what you mean here...things go very smoothly at any company, until someone feels the need to "justify" their job.
Example: I used to work at Casey's, at the register AND making pizza. I made damn good pizza, if I do say so my damn self. That was the idea - make good pizza, people will be happy, people will continue to buy pizza.
Someone decided they should do something to show they deserved a raise, or at least, a title. And Chief Whanker was already taken.
So he fired off a memo: In an effort to keep the customer happy, pepperoni pizza's will now have a certain number of slices. In the case of a large pizza, 18 pieces of pepperoni.
I am NOT making this up.
Their reality was distorted by their need to feel important. And in the process, they lost track of what WAS important in ANY business: Keeping the customer happy.
Do what I do, prank call your boss at 2 in the morning, tell him his wife is on the way home...
Mwahaha!! I would, but I prefer my old standards of just telling him for a month of so that she was eaten by Metroids... then later introducing myself as a Metroid...
hehehe... that cracks me up... "give her a call, call her late at night" - Cheech