I am continuing subjects that honor tape sessions with Sparky. I feel... like I am going to lose it, then I come back, then I feel a bit sad, then I come back. Then I just wanna eat a burger and spit it up since I never really wanted a burger, and then I want to run naked through the forest with people around. JOHD... I some times forget that at some point I am going to die, and nothing done will no longer matter, whether I get the privilage of Heaven or not. It will not because it will be a mortal world that I would have left behind. It makes living life the way I do a lot easier. You know, JOHD, I realize from time to time that the reason I can live the life the way I do, and have things happen bad and make it through, and interact with people and not let them hurt me, is due to that thinking. It is a concept that I think I picked up many moons ago, and it actually has gotten me through some of the tougher times in life. My mind... is... shaken, not stirred. I may not get the updates today as I had originally planned. I also have class soon... like... hour and 30 minutes, so... buttons.
I love you JOHD, keep an eye out for Madd.