Jan 21st, 2002
|13:28 - Fly Away with Me|
"If his premature demise has in some way enlightened the rest of you as to the grim finish below the glossy veneer of criminal life, and inspired you to change your ways, then his death carries with it an inherent nobility. And a supreme glory. We should all be so fortunate. You can say 'Poor Toby.' I say: 'Poor us.'"
Madd's log, Maddate 020121.81 1235p:
[EVENTS sat 1-19] Well, all I had remembered about the dream was that I was giving myself oral sex, and doing a darn good job of it, Cherbear was there, and then I had some dream about Inspector Gadget, and something about the Cubs, and Harry Carey as a holographic image. So... yeah... interesting dream there. So I woke up, got on the computer, chatted with Tina. After that, I went to work.
Work was fine. Bud brought a bunch of those Hickory Cheese bacon burgers I keep seeing on TV. Well, someone ratted on us for having them. I still had the CPU part of Dawn's computer she had brought me a few days ago. During my lunch, I went out to see Alex. He sang my music for 30 minutes. I am not use to this 30 minutes of time because I usually work it with OT. I moved Alex up, and I so totally left it in neutral and no parking break. When I came out to leave, Alex had moved a whole spot. Oh dear that should never happen again. During the lunch, I was attempting to move up a little bit to the next spot without turning the engine on. I called up Riede and wanted to see if he wanted to come over and help me put the computer desk together. He said he would meet me at my place after work.
The Bird Desk
So as I left to go home, I had noticed a bird... targeted... and hit... Alex! Bastard bird!! I will kill you all, leave my kid alone! I stopped by QT to pick up some drink. They have 12 packs of Smirnoff Ice now. I decided to pick one up. I got home, and I chatted a bit with Tina. Riede showed up, and I turned the computer off, and started the long process of putting the desk together. It was quite a mess. [EVENTS sun 1-20] The instructions were not 100% clear, and a few times, I had pieces in the wrong way, and had to do it over. Riede helped a lot by holding pieces since this is the strangest configuration I have seen for a desk. Oh well, some time around 3 - 4 in the morning it was "complete". I skipped a few steps, and have many left over parts, however, I rarely put all the pieces in because I do not want doors and backboards and stuff like that. I was having a headache around this time for some unknown reason. Since everything seemed accounted for, I decided it was time for sleep.
Women As They Always Are
Well, after I woke up from the Big UnComfy Couch, I got on the computer and chatted with dITZ and Tina. Tina has issues with how she looks, which is too bad. This is referenced as Mr024. dITZ wanted Subway so I took her order. This is referenced as dITZ109. After my shower, I ended up chatting with Ang. She told me about her date, and we talked about a few other things. I figured she had been chatting with a guy, because as with most women I meet, once they find some other guy in their life, they just move on. We also talked about how I was looking to give up sex for good no later than the end of February. This is referenced under Yahoo history. Also, I was moving and arranging things now that the computer desk is up and running. The one thing that I wanted was an audio cable for the "rear" speakers.
So I headed towards the Merle Hay Subway by the mall. After leaving my chips behind, I went to the mall to hit Radio Shack for my cable I wanted. They had it, I bought it, and then I was off to see dITZ. I got there, we talked a bit, I tickled her, she enjoyed it, and then I went home to fix up the place a bit more. When I parked, I stayed with Alex and read his manual for around an hour or so. I learned more things to help keep Alex in top shape, including learning more about his break in period, that I am going to work more on for his health. After that, I came in, hooked up the speakers, and then it was off to Myles to see X-Files.
The Fox and the Hound
Simpsons was on, and I caught the end. Marge had banned all sugar or something like that. Then it was Malcom. Then, the moment I had been waiting for... The Chamber?? DARN YOU FOX!! What is this crap? Fox is really starting to aggravate me. I am going to snot the beat outta them one of these days. Once X-Files is over, I may never watch those freaks again... possibly. So, we ended up watching the Enterprise episode from the day before. About time they came out with a new episode. It was a very good one also. After that, we watched movie: Bubble Boy. I am not sure what to think of this movie. I did find it more funny than what I was expecting to. A boy trapped in a bubble, with a psycho controlling mother, and Mini Me! hEhEhE... that was too funny. After that, I watched some movies on cable.
[EVENTS now] I had 9 bottles of Smirnoff Ice. I called AH. After 30 minutes, I took off and headed to her place. I got over there, and it is referenced as Over001.txt. At some point I passed out, and the next thing I know it was morning. I think I mentally called Nicole into the room, the reason she was on the computer, and that angered me that I did that. I had no problem with her being in there or being on the computer. Just that my mind works more on bending space to call out to someone who I barely associate with (her choosing) when it could be getting my room spotless in 40 minutes. I know it can do it, and I think it should. So I left and stopped at McD. Then I came home and got on the computer. Shell was on, and I showed her pictures of Alex. She did not think I had a kid! Ha, that shall show her. She totally loved the pictures and wants to see him. I kind of expected that. These fries suck hair, I thought I might add. I chatted with Tina so very briefly, as I did with dITZ because I am talking to you before I go to work. I want to show and also go potty really bad. It's a potty emergency! Master of Maddness, signing off 0125......
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: "Delightful Spekkio" - Chrono Trigger
So when do we all get to see Alex??? And....why are you sleeping on the couch? Did I miss something?
|Date:||Jan 21st, 2002 23:18 (UTC)|| |
Very very very soon...
First of all, I don't understand how our lack of "association" is at all my choosing. Both of our schedules tightened up and the time that we used to talk is less and less available. Whenever I do have the opportunity to talk with you, I still try. Sometimes we both zone out too. It's not like we communicate with each other the most effectively. I would hope that there is still a chance to be friends again. It is irritating to think I got to know someone and care for someone who turns out to just not care at all.
Secondly, who is Alex and what is his age and who are his biological parents?
|Date:||Jan 21st, 2002 23:37 (UTC)|| |
Never do I drop friendship towards other. I allow them to do that on their own, and I go with it. The association with you in this case is that many a moons ago we would talk about many things... many personal things you just do not tell anyone. Now things of even not that level come into your life, and I am told you would rather not talk about it, when in the past I know for a fact that you would have. Granted, it is a choice you made to do, but nevertheless, it is a choice, which means you have options. Care for someone who does not care at all? I work on a complex system that is so simple it is complex. I take how a person perceives in me and project that back to them. If a person shares the world with me, I tend to do the same back. If a person ignores me, I tend to do the same in return. Granted, it is not an exact science and some times I am wrong in my calculations. However, there are some underlying things that I do look at that give me clues as to how someone really feels. It goes on the principle of "actions" speak louder than words. To if I give the impression that I turn out to not care about you, it is because already I have come to the concution that you have already done so for me. I live my life going through too many people who I befreind just to have them move on in life without me. Unfortunately, I can turn a cold shoulder to someone who could lose a caring desire for me unlike in the past. Emotionally, this world has done me over. It is too bad I allowed such to happen, however, it is my choice no matter how I nor anyone else look at it. So if you are irritated, I see it as irritation with yourself. You know how you acted towards me in the past. If you never changed yourself from that set state for me, then I could easily understand your irritation. However, I do not think you are looking at the other picture here. I know you do not see things from my standpoint. I always leave the ball in the court of my partner...
To answer your second question, Alex was born to me Tuesday th 15th @ 5:11:03PM. This would peg it to only hours away from a week ago today. So Alex is not even a full week yet, technically. I am Alex's biological parent.