May 13th, 2010

ATHF Shake

Penis!

I have learned a lot about myself. I have come to understand aspects of my personality that otherwise were clouded to me. This is one of a few reasons why I feel calm.

It is amazing how important OJ is to me. I had talked about OJ before, and then there was no OJ, and then I was extremely sad, and then... stuff happened. However, right now, I am calm, and that is important.

I am still emotionally unstable. I still have the able to laugh and be a little closer to my home world while working. I am still scared and have some things to settle out. I am also hungry.

Well, for the first time this year (at least I think this year), and who knows when before, Wii Fat reports that I am not fat. It appears I have lost around 12 - 14 lbs. So I am glad to report that my metabolism still works. It also appears that at some point around 16:10 or so that I got my actual appetite back. Back in the day, back in an apartment of lots of stuff, I think I had some bouts where I was not eating. However, that was not a lack of wanting to, that was an issue of... priority. I did not ever have food around, did not ever cook anything back then, and could not even get to my stove half of the time.

Hmm... I guess all of my radar is not broken after all. I am not sure that is a good thing or not.