December 13th, 2004

ani-moo cow

Madd v 3.0.74

Well, JOHD, I did it and made it.  On Dec 9th, I turned 30.  So besides living to tell the tale, I did tell it so without being behind bars.  I would like to give thanks to the humans who recognized this event, such as:

BJ crew (Amber, Larry, Renee, waitress)
Biker Babe

I appriciate it, especially since I had been dreading that day for as long as I have known.  It did not suck.  Sure, it could have been better, however, it always could be.  These humans made it decent enough to go through.  Whether they got me gifts or simply called or messaged my arse, I do really appriciate it.

So, well, I guess it is time to end procrastination, as I said I would when I turned 30.  {sigh} Oh, this is going to be interesting.  I know you can do it, Madd, because I remember the conversation in Spark's bathroom (before he got sick, if I remember right).  I looked me straight in the eye, and commented, a few times over, that it is time, and that it is.  End it all, and I did not start exactly at the birthday mark, however that is just fine with me.  I can start it now, for that is what I am doing, and what I shall do, to continue to improve that which God already gave me.

So I am going to finally do it.  I am going to stick to my guns, and be the Madd I have always wanted to be, and while the changes have been placed and slowly attempted to take over, with 30 here and the end of the year near, soon, all shall not only be a Reality, it shall stay as a Reality.  I want it to happen, thus, it shall happen.  With as much as I know of the human mind, and as much as I have studied humans (especially myself), I know this as a possibility.  So, hopefully, the new Madd version is that which I had always hoped and dreamed for (minus the losing of keys and controllers).  God shall give me strength, and God shall give me power.
  • Current Music
    "Final Fantasy VI Fanfare" - Squaresoft (repeat)

toasted 01100101

okay, well, for whatever reason, I am nuking people from my list... everyone... no exceptions, minus, those who either reply to this list, confront me on-line, on phone, or corner me in a dark ally. please note, if you do, have plenty of whipped cream handy... male or female, we do not discriminate over here. everyone else shall become a faded memory when I see fit for it to happen, most likely during katchup time, when everything is caught up to where I wish it to be, which I think, is like the start of 2003 to the start of 2005. Ha!! Only two years, hell, I have emails that I still am to reply to that are like 4 or so years old, so I think I can hack... correction, I *KNOW* I can hack this. If I have no clue who you are, as the human messaging me, or, if you seemed to have slipped out of my Reality to go about your own business, then, you shall be DRILLED as to what makes you so special to be on my list.

No, not a pompus ass... I am not smart enough to spell the word correctly. No, I am not better than you or anyone else. In fact, if that IS what you think, do youself a flavor and split, as in banana, as you obviously are too into YOURSELF to understand who the Master of Maddness is. After all, this is my darn special place, and I write, well, for me and me only. I only censor anything to protect others, for as much as I believe in freedom of speech, and freedom of exabition (and the inability to spell most words), I do not believe in disrespecting other people, even those who in turn are disrespectful themselves. What the fuck is today? Hmm... the 13th, well, gee, how about we aim for Christmas? Everyone toasted by then... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

welcome to my newly confused world...

[edit** did I mention those who I feel have no right, or simply let themselves out of the loop of my life are going to get extremely "harsh" interactions with me as to what makes them think they belong to be on my list? hey, as much as you humans claim you enjoy and crave honesty, most of you CANNOT handle it, so BE WARNED]
  • Current Music
    FFVI still...