May 14th, 2004


I Am Alive

... and others are dead.  Many others are dead, people are dying about every sentance that I can write no matter how fast I attempt to type.  Many others are born to take their place... I am attempting to remember, and I do believe that the living are surpassing the dead.  Dead... you know, JOHD, I keep thinking about that act, of my death, and how there is nothing there.  Nothing in the books states that God has to allow me to exist beyond the point of being that I am now.  God is, after all, the true Master of everything, and He can do whatever He wants, including stopping my existance after it is over.  It is amazing how much I think about it, and I realize I think about it more and more.  I would say that if it happens I would have no bad feelings towards God, then realize, if it really did happen I would no longer be anything to question anything, haha!  Thursday was an interesting day... I woke up, filled with life and it was good to do so.  Oh look some snail mail.

"Dear friend... I am sending you this chain money scheme letter so that you know where I live and can have me killed quicker than if I just kept to my darn self."

Hahaha, I am going to have them all murdered, JOHD, I mean, really, I am sick of getting this crap.  All human so interested in money as much as they are.  Wow I never realized Moondrop is black.  I have nothing against blacks, I just spent some intimate time with her and figured I would have noticed such a thing.  Maybe it is not her... maybe it is her mother or something.  Hey this song reminds me of Lacy Jane.  I remember she convinced me that it was Enya, and I never realized I actually OWNED the flippid CD and it is Celtic Moon.  Wow, how is that for crazy?  You know, JOHD, I think I am sick of humans.  I really am.  Remember when we use to play Baseball Stars by SNK on the good old NES, and interacted with absolutely no one but out own hand?  Ah yes, such excellt times.  Of course, the down side was that I lived with step monsters... of course, everything works out there in the end.  Have morons unable to spell 'at' and eventually bad things happen to them on their own without anyone else having to intervine.  Arg, I so wish I was a better speller some times.  Say hello to my new girlfriend... increase the size of my penis... increase mt flippid breast size!!  Wow, I am so happy to own email.  Ah, JOHD, remember when we had no such thing?  What in the world am I spending all this money on?  Oh yeah, breast enhancement... or soething enhancement.  Well, JOHD, sorry to cut this so short since I obviously have much on my mind, however, I have the ever important video games calling me to take care of.  Two of them, and of course, one video game is worth many times more than a handful of humans.
  • Current Music
    "Main Theme of FF IV" - Celtic Moon