Hi, JOHD. How are you today? I am doing well myself, thank you for asking. Some interesting dreams, of which involved on of my most flavorite, hearing Pink Floyd from the real world to the dream world. There is not much remembered from the dream. I was a teacher or something in one part, and was playing Numb, and some person turned it off around 6 minutes and 13 seconds into the song. This caused me to be slightly unhappy. That is all of the dream I remember. Speaking of dreams, I have had a yet another a while back regarding X-Files. The number of X-Files dreams I have had in my life is rather amazing. I even remember that dream log 950403.1 had a mention of it, so I know I have been having X-File related dreams since then. I never really got into it, as in watching it almost religiously, since after the X-Files movie. The movie was released in 1998. I would catch all seasons after that. I am not sure what my mental tie is with X-Files. Had I been dreaming of X-Files before I started to watch every episode, I could understand. I would say it was something possibly to do with Myles, since he is the one who faithfully tapes and watched them with me. Well, not as faithful. He would rather watch a movie award program than X-Files, hEhEhE!! Not I. Maybe I should ask God the tie... if anyone would know, it would be Him.
Shields Returning to Normal, Cap'in
[EVENTS now] Well... obviously, there was some massive damage done to my shielding last night. Many attacks by quite a few aggressors. Usually I handle these attacks without too much trouble. However, it was just not the best of days. I out some effort into thought last night, as I was lying in bed. I was thinking how possibly, I was being attacked on a level beyond standard 4th dimensional means. It would make a lot of sense. At the same time, I have not had problems with anything beyond 4th dimensional for a long time. Then again, 5th dimensional thinking has increased of late. I guess I had lost a bit of faith in myself. I let the workings of society taint my very blood and mind. I think it is time that I claim it all back. It is time that I regain what I have lost. Of course, in doing so, I must come to the understanding that more 5th dimensional beings may be attracted to me. This means that I shall have to be strong. I may have to come to the realization that my loved ones may be an important part in keeping my strength. Too many times, I think I have felt like an unstoppable force. I felt that I never required the help of anyone, that I can do everything by myself if I at least understood what was going on. While I may be able to do many things on my own, the Reality of it is that some times I fail in keeping my own pace. I am going to have problems that may require me turning to friends and loved ones. So I must keep a better eye open to see when this external help is required. When Iowa City Gal and Alienesse called me last night when my away message was telling everyone to "stay away", and left messages and was showing slight concern for me, it help restore my shielding even faster. It helped my mind heal faster. Of course, I also learned that some times, it does help to just sit in a corner and release to just one. That one was you, JOHD, the reason I did not answer either calls last night. I wanted to make my rage with you, since I know you can always handle it, and then sleep it off and let the power of music come in and heal while I slept. It was a good plan, my friend, my mind is back to where it was on the start of yesterday. Well... there is quite a bit to catch up, so... shall we?
Hey, Try Not to Suck Any Dick on the Way Through the Parking Lot!
[EVENTS saturday 8/25] So some time during Clerks, I would get a phone call from NY Friend. The reference she made a while back to how many woman I had sex with all made sense now. I found it rather amusing. I am sure… that my computer just crashed. Thank goodness for autosave. So what was I talking about. Oh yeah, I remember now. One thing I forgot to mention was some time before I woke up, a few would have already taken the Dr Shrink program on my web site. The fastest response would be from dITZ. I would see this before I originally went to work. Anyway, now that I remembered that, it is time to move on to the next movie, and complete my Kevin Smith experience.
Chasing Who? (SPOILER)
Chasing Amy. This would be the movie after Mallrats, which was the first movie that I saw from Kevin Smith. This would also be the next movie on our watching list. (WARNING!! THIS IS A POSSIBLE SPOILER FOR ANYONE WHO HAS NOT SEEN "CHASING AMY", THE MOVIE BY KEVIN SMITH. SCROLL DOWN THE PAGE UNTIL YOU SEE END SPOILER AT THE TOP OF YOUR BROWSER IF YOU WISH NOT TO HAVE ANY MENTIONING OF CHASING AMY RUINED FOR YOU.)
At the very end, Mallrats mentioned that Jay, Silent Bob, and Suzanne would be coming in a movie soon name Chasing Amy. This would be said movie. Here we have comic book artist Holden (AKA Ben Affleck), along with master tracer (hehehe) Blanky (AKA Jason Lee), who have created a popular comic book of Bluntman and Chronic, who are based off of the infamous duo of Jay & Silent Bob (AKA Jason Mewes and Kevin Smith). Jay and Silent Bob do not necessarily have as large a roll as in Mallrats, but they portray their zany characters way more true to Mallrats than in Clerks. Holden ends up falling in love with Alyssa (AKA Joey Adams), who he later finds out is a lesbian. It gets even more twisted when she actually decides to pursue something with him. This causes much strain to the relationship with Blanky and Holden. I admired the relationship shown between these two. It hit slightly close to home when I saw the strain their relationship was going through. I felt a little bit of myself and some people of the past caught up in a similar situation. I also got a rather big kick out of the part when Alyssa and Holden are on the swing set talking about a lesbian and her virginity, or lack of, with two woman who have sex with each other. I had this decision/debate with a bisexual friend of mine some time back, with her stating she was a virgin and me claiming that if she said she had "sex" with another woman, then she was not a virgin. That part of the movie sticks out with me more than anything. It was a good scene. Well... another part of the movie that got my attention was when Holden learns of Alyssa's past, and has more than a difficult time accepting it. At first I wanted to think how he was in the wrong, but then, I started to think how it was more her that was in the wrong. One of those, which character do you side with kind of things. She had said how she was not really with any guys, and then to find out by a third part that she was pushed him over the edge. I can relate with people that avoid things and if it is to go to some one it would go in route of a third party. I have a constant reminder in my closet door in the shape of a large fist, where I smashed a hole due to my anger back then when I found out information the difficult way. So my heart went more towards him than her. Of course, it set up the stage for closer to the end, which really threw me for a quick loop. Holden gets Blanky and Alyssa in the same room. Blanky has a definite dislike for Alyssa for he feels that she is helping to cause the relationship problems between Holden and him. That tension was made apparent. When Holden said that the way to resolve the problems was for all three of them to have sex with each other, I just giggled and made sure I was watching the same movie. I would have never seen this kind of plot twist. Blanky makes statements on his sexuality, defending his heterosexuality, and then Holden kisses him. hEhEhE!! Yeah, that was too much for me. I didn't get sick, but I threw all logic for the movie out of the window at that point. It was very amusing, especially how Blanky does not go all crazy or anything like that. Overall, I did enjoy the movie, however, if I had been told this plot, and there was no relationship to Jay & Silent Bob, I would not have watched it I am sure. It was a rather slow movie. I feel it is the slowest movie of all Kevin Smith's major films, starting with Clerks, ending with the Jay & Silent Bob movie. At the same time, however, I would not put it in the bad movie list. By the way, there is not a single character named Amy in the movie, but, it set up for Silent Bob to do his trademark speech that he gets in all his movies.
Good Night, Good Fight
So now I felt that I was prepared for the Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back, scheduled to be watched some time Tuesday with Myles. I decided to go home.
The Chat Heard 'Round the Net
[EVENTS sunday 8/26] I would go home, and basically chat with two people, Cheryl and Alienesse. The chat with Cheryl was some concerns she had, referenced in Ch019. However, there would be a long chat I would have with Alienesse referenced as Al133. She came to me for help, in regards to wanting to talk to someone about a problem she was having with someone. I would end up personalizing it I would see later. I also was hit a few close to home. I guess some ways I felt our relationship had always been, and she plainly stated to me that we were not as close as I had thought/hoped we were. I had thought we were at least close friends. But according to her, we were not. This would end up hurting me, I think. I did not realize it at the time, but very soon, I would learn an important message from how I acted with this chat.
Slow Motion Work Day
I was excited this night. Iowa City Gal was coming over after work. Work was super slow. The calls got up as much as 7 minutes between calls. I would also have very deep thoughts in regards to Iowa City Gal. They were a mixture of a lot of different things. Some of it, of course, wondering just where I was in her life. Wondering how things were going to go when we got together. Well, work went so slow, that they gave me etime and I had not even signed up. It went something like they asked if I wanted to sign the book, so I did, and then they said I could leave. The only reason I decided to leave on etime was because I was expecting company.
TetriMaster Madd Martin
So I cleaned up just a little bit more before she got there. I have this large compulsion to want to give her a hug, but at the same time, I know she is not much for being a hugging type of person. I respect that. We would play Tekken 2. This time, she was not as lucky as when we first encountered each other. I would have the upper hand, since I knew how to block. Plus, since she was forcing me to play as Kuma, I would learn a few extra tricks with him. She didn't stand a chance, mwahaha!! After that, we would go into Next Tetris. This would be her first time playing this version of Tetris. I kept her in check for the first half of our playing time, even though I was all the way at level 10, and she was around 3 and so. However, soon the tides would turn, and her Tetris abilities would start to show. They started to show so much, in fact, that I found myself ranked down to level 8. I almost thought I might cry. I had worked so much to get to level 10. My powers, however, would not be undermined. I would make a comeback and reach level 10 once again. I was rather impressed that I made it so fast to there. After that, it was a matter of her and I alternating between a few games, so that no one could rank up or down.
[EVENTS monday 8/27] So after game play, we would hit the movies. The first movie we watched was Monty Python and the Holy Grail. It had been a rather long time since I had watched that movie. I still knew most major parts of the movie word for word. That made me very happy. I did get the impression that she enjoyed the movie. Maybe not as much as I did, but I am not sure of anyone who would enjoy this movie as much as I. There is only one movie I know that I have seen more than this movie. After Holy Grail, she requested Matrix, and I am one who loves to do requests. So in the late hours of the night, we would watch Matrix. Been a while since I had seen Matrix. It was definitely a good call on her part.
Outside the Wall
[EVENTS now] Well, I do declare, but it is close to that time again. I at least made it through a day and a half. This is good. I am making progress. I seem to be back on track of things, JOHD. The procrastination Demon is knocking on my door, which I do not like at all, but I will manage. I know I can win that war, since I am winning so many key battles, even if I lose a few here and there. So keep the keys warm for me, and I shall get back to you after work. Master of Maddness, signing off 0254p......