I am hard on you because I care about you, and I care about others. Humans, of late, have been much nicer to me. Lost friends have not been so lost to me anymore (thanks Gretl, thanks Starr, thanks Biker Babe). God has shown Himself to be looking out for my lost self much more. Renata shows a deeper respect in wanting to chat and communicate with me as opposed to blowing me off as just any other person in her past/present. Finacial situations have improved and people are actually starting to pay back money that I otherwise thought lost (thanks Moondrop, thanks others). SO do not fuck it up, for I will punish you in the strictest form of it. You will deserve it. So I say it so that WHEN you revert to subconscious mode after drinking, since I found that is what we humans do, that the subconscious KNOWS where I stand, and what I will not stand for. You are a nice and caring person to others, let us keep it that way in all forms.
Thank thee Lord, who has gotten me to where I am right now. Thank thee for the wonderful friends and family who have helped shape me into the person I am today, who have taught me their ways so that I could better myself as a person. Thank thee Lord for looking out for me when no one else could, and for taking care of me when if not my life would be in perril. Even though you have not blessed me with the ability to spell, I thank thee Lord for all the many wonderful things about my personality that you have blessed me with. Continue to give me strength, and continue to look out for me, and my loved ones, and every other human on this planet since we are all so lost without Your strength and guidance.