Well, JOHD... turns out nothing is wrong with my leg, JUST as expected. If there is one thing I believe I still know, it is my body... and to that, my lipid tests came back. Seems that I have high cholesterol. I am at 227, JOHD, and the range is 120 - 200. Dr Sidney stated that I have three months to lower it "naturally" before she hooks me up to meds. {sigh} You know, JOHD... for all my life, I just stuck things in my mouth (literally, like from bar floors and the like). I never really paid attention to what was going in, unless it was moving, or smelt worse than my underwear. So here I am, 28, and here I am, with high cholesterol. This is very typical, I mean very. This is how Marfan's was first thought possible in me. Some ten+ years ago I go in for my knees, wondering why they are in the pain they are, and I end up leaving with my heart and everything else looked at. So, being the strange being I am, here I go, actually starting to look at ways to improve my health. I must say, I am rather impressed and proud of myself. Of late, I have managed to start taking care of myself (going to the doctor, quitting shmoking, etc), and am fighting to take back what belongs to me, my mind. I am battling procrastination, and I am starting to win. Yeah I have my off days, but you can't make an egg sandwich without breaking a few cows for free. Oh, my trglycerides are at 167. Range is 0-200. My HDL Cholesterol is 42, with acceptable range 40-62. My LDL cholesterol is 152. This varies with age. Being the "young" bird I am, I am told this is fine. So everything else does check out rather well. So changes are going to be made... my word, I looked at a bag of chips before eating them to check what the cholesterol content was (it was 0%, yay for that). I know for a long time, I stated that life is nothing more than a ride to death. Not even taxes are a certainty (humans can find ways around it). Death, however, is inevitable. I guess I would rather my trip be a decent one. I guess that is the reason I am the way I am towards other humans. Doing my best to spread joy one Reality at a time. Hey JOHD, 35304 minutes left until my birthday, yay for me! It is on a Monday, which is when I was actually born on. I still have much work to do, JOHD, and unfortunately very few humans are helping me with it. I guess it is fitting, that the one who best take care of me actually be Madd. I am the only one who cannot escape myself. Everyone else can, or has found a way. Everyone has better defenses against myself. I have the weakest, the recorse for knowing what I am normally thinking. Stupid brain. Oh yeah, once again I am opting to remove swearing from my vocabulary, minus artistic purposes. I still do not believe in censorship. I feel semi tired, and I hope if I work on my site some how it will spark energy in me. Once my foot is recovered I believe it would be good to attempt an exercise routine. I figure if I can take care of the body that way, other things (brain) will follow suit. I would like to thank John/sub, who last night, as my last and longest call, gave me the affirmations that I rarely hear from other customers for the work I do. Thank you for appriciating what I was able to contribute to your life.
determined 
